Suffering for Christian Witness

How can a man who is carrying a cross think systematically? A christian has to be more than a bearer of a heavy cross. He must share Christ's crucifixion to where the pains of Christ are his, and the pains of all creation. No grief and no suffering in the whole world should not grieve him so. If a man is crucified with Christ, how can he think systematically? Can there be that kind of thought on a cross? Jesus Himself thought unsystematically on the cross. He began with forgiveness. He spoke of a paradise in which even a robber had a place; then He despaired that perhaps there might be no place in paradise even for Him, the Son of God. He felt Himself forsaken. His thirst was so unbearable that He asked for water. Then He surrendered His spirit into the Father's hand. But there followed no serenity, only a loud cry. Remember Matthew 28:20: "Lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world."